STRENKOR

FML

Today is April fools’ day.  (Looking at the clock..) Well, it was yesterday.. Anyway, all joke I’ve heard or see all day was just a crappy one from one of my friends. It was so ridiculous, and meaningless, in fact I’m not sure if it could count as a joke-not that I complained about it-.
He kept telling that joke, regardless of how many times I warned him to stop it, and I will punch him in the face when he least expects it as a punishment. I told him I will and he knows that I definitely will.

Well, that’s not the point. The point is.. the day is gone and I didn’t hear any other joke, not even from any random guy.

Am I really that much cold that nobody wants to tell a joke to me? Did I forget to laugh already? Or did I lost my old friends? Hmm, there is nothing they can do, though. When I lost myself, I couldn’t expect from them to find me..
What can I say? FML..

Come to think of it, I can’t complain about my life, it would be very ungrateful. I have a very good life, say thankya.. Something is missing though.. I have been trying to suppress this emptiness feeling for so long by so many different things. 

Music helps, but it’s relief is temporary, not permanent. And if I chose a wrong song to listen it could even feed the feeling.

I fear that when I grow old-if god lets me-, the only feeling left will be that emptiness..

Just now I thought “Why have I been writing this to a place that either nobody will read it or some random people will read it?”, I guess I did wrote it here to show that they are not alone if they feel like me. Or maybe subconsciously I did wrote it to see that I’m not alone if anyone gives a hint that shows (s)he understood me..

I was writing about April fools’ day. It’s interesting that things get here.